how im feeling...

well i have noticed that everyone is being very open with there feeling and i though i would be too.. honestly things are pretty rocky lately.  my big family is changing. people are getting married, having kids, and we are slowly drifting apart into our own individual families.  i know that this change is inevitable and has been happening for the past few years but things feel different lately. me and my parents are super close still and i am so grateful for that but all this change in my other big family is making things hard.  i usually like change but some things i want to stay the same forever. my aunt just got married last week.  we have a whole new family apart of us.  i know i wont be as affected as my cousins will, but i know things will never be the same.  i miss my uncle all the time.  i just cant get over the fact that he isnt here anymore.  i know he wasnt my dad and i wasnt as close as others were but i think about him all the time and i cant help but feel like he is being forgotten along the way.  i know i am being super selfish but this is something i still need to deal with.  i envy my cousins and other family who can deal with this in a positive way. i have not gotten that far yet. i guess i just need some time to process what has been happening.
i have no idea what the future hold for me and i get pretty freaked out.  feel kinda lost in it all. there are so many possibilities and so many choices i have to make. i just have to take it slow and know that everything will fall into place.

#32 Go Rock Climbing

Rock Climbing! It is so fun. I am taking a class this semester titled, "Rock Climbing."  I have never climbed before unless you count climbing the wood pile in Island Park.  I know its indoors and so its not technically rock climbing, but you gotta start somewhere.  It is actually really hard at first. I had no idea how to move my body. Its all about using your legs to push yourself up and your arms are really just for support. I have my class once a week and with my class I get a membership so I can climb whenever I want. Its awesome! I eventually wanna save up to buy my own pair of shoes and harness and all that so I can go outside when it warms up. For now Ill just stick with indoors and maybe if someone I know rock climbs I can smoose off them:)

#21: Eat The Perfect Burger and Fries

Well number 21 on my list was eat the perfect burger and fries and it happened! It happened a while ago but I still thought I would tell everyone about my experience. Me and my dad went skiing at Targhee a couple weeks ago and on the way back we stopped by the Cheeseburger Factory over in Driggs by Joan and Randys.  I ordered the burger with jack cheese and it was amazing! I have had it before and this burger gets better and better every time. I ate every single bite.  I can not wait until the next time that I can eat it! Well, number 21, you are crossed off!

NEW BLOG!

hello everyone! since it being the new year and all I have decided to actually keep up on my blog and start fresh with all that i have been doing on it...lets be honest, its pretty boring.  Lately I have been really in to this show called The Buried Life. Its about a group of guys who have a bucket list of 100 things they want to do before they die then each episode they document something that they crossed, or attempted to cross, of their list.  So i have started and am still in the process of making my own list.  Because I have no idea what to talk about sometimes Ill put up things that I accomplish on my list for you all to see. hope it works out well! :)