well i have noticed that everyone is being very open with there feeling and i though i would be too.. honestly things are pretty rocky lately. my big family is changing. people are getting married, having kids, and we are slowly drifting apart into our own individual families. i know that this change is inevitable and has been happening for the past few years but things feel different lately. me and my parents are super close still and i am so grateful for that but all this change in my other big family is making things hard. i usually like change but some things i want to stay the same forever. my aunt just got married last week. we have a whole new family apart of us. i know i wont be as affected as my cousins will, but i know things will never be the same. i miss my uncle all the time. i just cant get over the fact that he isnt here anymore. i know he wasnt my dad and i wasnt as close as others were but i think about him all the time and i cant help but feel like he is being forgotten along the way. i know i am being super selfish but this is something i still need to deal with. i envy my cousins and other family who can deal with this in a positive way. i have not gotten that far yet. i guess i just need some time to process what has been happening.
i have no idea what the future hold for me and i get pretty freaked out. feel kinda lost in it all. there are so many possibilities and so many choices i have to make. i just have to take it slow and know that everything will fall into place.
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Hi, Just read your blog.Yes we all feel the change, but life goes on and everything will be o.k.We just have to keep in touch and let everyone know that we are still the best bunch around.Set your goals & standards high know that everyone still loves us stay in touch with everyone and spread the word. We are still FAMILY!!!
Love ya, Grandma
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